I had a great idea in 2009; I would write a book about how a modern person with traditional values would find love. I didn't think this would be so difficult. After all, I'd managed to resist the pressures of my own South Asian culture until the spinsterly age of 26, when, as my father put it, "to find a good man who would make a commitment to me" even if he wasn't Indian.
Fresh from an unlikely, whirlwind romance in the desert, I sat down to explore in fiction the difficult choices facing young Qatari men and women amongst the myriad dilemmas of love, choice, honor, and duty.
I put Abdulla and Sangita in a small London apartment and waited for sparks to fly.
But nothing was happening. There they were; young, attractive, in close proximity, and I couldn't believe that they were falling in love. All the elements were there but the emotions were missing.
I started asking everyone: "How do people fall in love?"
My older Indian friends were surprised.
"Didn't you have a love marriage?" They asked me, products of the arranged marriage system. "Don't you know?"
"Seems so long ago," I muttered, well out of earshot of my husband.
"I loved your book," another friend said. "I've never known what love is…" she said, with a dreamy look in her, having been arranged to her husband.
"It's all the same after a while," I said to her dryly, watching our husbands on their mobile phones while we mothers ran after our children.
"But how can they fall in love," I asked my Qatari friends, growing desperate for realism as the book entered a seemingly endless cycle of revisions.
"She has to be hot," one of my male beta readers said, in all honesty.
Chemistry. Right. I forgot that part, somehow, settling into comfortable domesticity.
Abdulla and Sangita did eventually find their way in the story. The sequel to the book is in progress and explores an equally murky area: what happens after the spark? Are the chances for survival of 'falling into' love greater?
I grew up with the idea that no, falling in love did not guarantee romantic success; making allegiances between well researched partners was stacking the cards in your favor. My parents' anti-falling in love argument was the 50% divorce rate in America.
What do you think? Do you fall in and out of love? Or do you choose to love?
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